I’ll be honest with you — I’m nervous. Lapster and I have been writing on bathingsuitplaces.com for a while now, and only a few people in my life know about it. In my defense, I had never blogged before starting this site, and I wasn’t sure I would even like writing. It was not a good idea to broadcast my new little hobby for fear that I would stop in a few weeks and the whole thing could die a quiet death. However, now several months have gone by and we have more than 100 posts (107 to be exact) and it seem like it might be a good time to tell the world — well, tell my world at least.

I don’t even understand why I’m so self-conscious about it. I’ve been very careful — this post being a good exception — of NOT discussing my own life, but focusing on things I love. So it isn’t as if I’ve been writing dirty letters or divulging my innermost thoughts and dreams. In my mind, I have created a list of all the reasons to keep my blog for my eyes only — and of course, the eyes of whoever happens to stumble here by accident thinking it is a bathing suit catalog.

First Excuse.

I have dated a lot of techie boys and I love them. They are my downfall really. I’m crazy for gadgets, and a man that can tell me the best one to buy or even better — set it up for me is my hero. They have all been programmers, web designers, etc. They “DO” the Internet as a career, read blogs religiously, and in our relationship they have always been the technology experts. Since my boyfriends were are so knowledgeable they might compare my blog to the best blogs and sites out there, or even worse they might “give me advice” that I wouldn’t want to take and we would be in a strange mess. I psych myself out with competition.

Second Excuse.

I’m not a very good writer. At the end of the day — design is important, great links essential, but blogs are all about the writing. If you know me personally, my posts sound like you are talking with me on the phone. If you don’t know me, I sound like a 13 year old girl. Like, ya know? It’s true. There are some really great bloggers out there who have a witty, brilliant, or insightful style that I’m crazy for. I know, I know writing is an art. It is a skill I must work at — practice makes perfect — but all that said — it’s tough to put your writing out there even when you are writing about silly things like camping ice cream or video games. For examples of some the great writers try: dooce, pagan girl, and find all sort of options on blogher.

Third Excuse.

When people are watching — we change who we are. You might say that is untrue, but when you are sitting around with your friends take out a camera and start filming. Instantly some friends pose, others cower. When life is recorded and others view it, you can’t help but take that into consideration. What if I need to use a swear word and my parents read it? What if I want to put my political views out there and one of my friends is offended? But I figure. . .the people who love you, will always love you. I can’t control other people’s reactions. I guess I just have to write and let my point of view be enough. At the end of the day, it’s just a blog. But that’s a tough one for me.

The list goes on and on. . .I don’t write timely posts, bad grammar and type-os, technical issues — I can’t change the size of pictures, put a table into posts, or embed video. But I’m learning.

I will try to put myself out there and share my thoughts with friends and family. Be brave. Stand up and say this is me! Sometime. Maybe.

Enjoy your day. It’s Friday!