It’s been a long time since I posted to a blog, but it hasn’t felt like it because I’ve been playing around with blogWerkz (the guts of wordpress, RSS, and blog templates) that it’s almost FELT like blogging. Okay, so here goes…

TECHMONSTER

It’s 4:39am. I am typing this blog on an old win98 laptop I refurbed so that I could have access to the Net upstairs in my loft and although it is a slow hunk of shit, it will serve it’s purpose. Since I often wake up from odd dreams the point of this blog post will be about the one that woke me up tonight. It’s the age old dream of your authentic self sublimated by the TRIO, but more importantly, the TECHMONSTER.

I recognize I am the TRIO (Action/Grace/Emotion) but in the dream the division of self is apparent because of the arguement occuring, the same frustrations being relived. Now I see something new on waking because the angle of light has changed. I am in a wide room and one aspect of my personality is forcing myself and two others to do a task related to technology (sorry this dream isn’t more fun). I am afraid of this dominating aspect but as I begin to do the task at hand I recognize that I am the thinker in the dream space, the cognitive part, the lynch pin (so to speak) for all three aspects, and therefore…

yes…you guessed it…

I have allowed an egotistical, controlling portion of my personality to drive the retarded zeppelin of my life around (things have felt a little stagnant lately) simply because he CAN and always HAS.

duh. TECHMONSTER MUST NOT WIN. TECHMONSTER MUST SUPPORT OTHER NEEDS AND DESIRES BESIDES FUN TECH AND NOT HIDE FROM feelings of weakness and lack of control.

we end with a happy link: Eagle in it’s nest in Canada (with sound)